and that might be the last time she will ever fall asleep in my arms while rocking her.
today is sophia’s birthday. this wondrous human being turns 10. and even though she refuses to celebrate today (we celebrated saturday instead), i’m going to pause on this day to gather the graces of ten years gone by:
I entered my spiral of motherhood at the age of 27 and I will inhabit its expansiveness for as long as I live, knowing that as the years progress, my spiral will wind in ever widening circles.
it was a day a few weeks ago, that i saw the wave, the really big one come into our family with the news that my oldest child has dyslexia.
I was resistant to look back at those early days and months as a new mom, and that’s what the meditation was inviting me to do.
the ribbon symbolized the journey of motherhood and the tethering of the others in the class together. she was curious about what it meant and as i replied to her, she set about wrapping it around my left wrist and tying it there.